There are 18 days left before Epic Hawaii begins. I haven't been giving God my all these past weeks. I've been so concerned about my own rest, my own fun this summer, and not enjoying God. I want to change my heart, to let it seek after God, to draw near to Him and enjoy His presence. I'm back "home" (chicago) for the first time in a year, and it's been great seeing friends and being back where I grew up. But no matter how awesome being "home" is or seeing all my friends, nothing can compare to the awesomeness of being with God.
In my heart, I think I often trick myself into thinking that the more righteously I try to live or the closer my walk is with God will result in more blessing from Him. My hope rests on the blessings and not God himself. Especially in this time where I'm scrambling to get my support for project together, I try to tell myself that as long as I keep doing right, reading the Bible and spending time in prayer, God will bless me. That's not to say that doing those things are wrong, but the motivation is wrong. It's true that God does want to bless us, but more importantly He wants us to love Him with all we got and how our hope should be founded in God alone, not what he does for us.
I trust that God will take care of me and take care of the support that still needs to be raised. I will not worry but instead, enjoy God and draw near to Him.
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